Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Amanda's LiveJournal:

Monday, October 24th, 2005
11:10 am	Goodbye, until tomorrow, goodbye, until my feet touch the floor. My papa died last night. I saw him little more then a month ago, he looked awful. The last week or so, papa had been violent, he strangled a nurse, he pushed my nana, they had to restrain him. Papa has never been violent, they think it was the drugs. The last time I saw him, when we were leaving and I hugged him. I got in trouble, but it was worth it, because I'll never get to hug him again. My mum called this morning, little after 7, she left a message telling me to call back, I knew it was going to be bad. I knew it had to do with Papa. And it's her birthday too. After she told me, I went to my room and cried myself back to sleep. I heard my dad saying things about how I was crying....he knew, but does he care? No. When I got back up...like, 20 minutes ago, Heather kept calling me, telling me my hair was pretty, she wanted me to lay with her in her bed, she wanted to brush my hair, but I didn't want to...I started to cry again. Then I came downstairs and called my mom, she called to see how I was. After that phonecall, I started to sob. And still, nothing from upstairs. All I want is to be hugged, I want someone to hold me while I cry. Sure, I could get a hug out of Heather, but hugging a three year old, isn't the most comfort a person can get. I'll get through this, I know I'm strong enough to do it alone. But I don't want to do it alone. amanda ((x-posted in my gj)) Current Mood: morose (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
1:38 am	First - My alma mater, NDSS, is doing Grease, and I found out the cast and I want to puke it's AWFUL! I could do a better job. I don't know what to say...it's BAD and GREASE?! It's SO fucking over done. (yes, I am bitter they didn't do it when I was there....I wanted to be Marty! KELLY?! WTF? SHE'S THE WORST MARTY EVER! AND I HAVN'T EVEN SEEN IT!!!) BIG NEWS! I almost tied a knot in the stem of a cherry with my tongue! ..... almost. Me: *standing by bar eating cherry. Hot guy walks by. I smile, try to seduce him with the fruit. Let the stem go in my mouth.* Guy: Can you tie it? Me: *nods ...works on it.....works on it....chokes* Guy: *freaked out* ..... *walks away* Me: *dead* MORE NEWS I would dyke it up for Evangeline Lilly. :) That's pretty much it. The cherry thing made me want to do the update. I had SO much to say.... amanda Current Mood: bitchy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
12:55 am	life = shit My mom thinks I'm a lesbian just because guys don't find me attractive. She keeps mentioing that other people my age are married and I've never had a boyfriend. Well fuck you, I have SOME standards, I'm not going to date the first thing that comes to me. I visited my papa. He looks awful. All creepyass skinny and such. I cried, but tried to hold it in...didn't work very well. I gave him a hug and got in trouble, not suppose to be that close. Well if he's going to die soon, why the fuck not? I don't care if I get sick. Lost was good, as was BB6, I mean, as good as it can guess when you hate both people. W/e. amanda p.s - Thought was an appropriate question. WHY IS LIFE SO HARD FOR THE FAT UGLY ONES?! (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
4:42 pm	survey dingy ( Survey ) (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
12:05 am	Huzzah Huzzah. I stole this from somewhere..... NOSE: manda ELBOW: manmdfas (I have a big elbow?) TONGUE: manda (that was gross) CHIN: man dxcz (it started out good) FEET: maqjhnsdera EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: bavsa (close...I got the last letter right) BACK OF YOUR HAND: hsnds (yes! one letter!) PALM: m,/snmfdas MOUSE: masndw WRIST: mkwqnmjerdwq SO, that was hot.... I went to the CNE yesterday, had a good time, got a BAD henna and bruised my thumb/nail...but other then that yay! I'm too lazy to give a good update.... amanda (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 18th, 2005
12:17 am	I suppose I am due for an update. Work was good today. Not busy but it kept me busy. I worked with Danea but she was doing other stuff while I worked. Meh. Creepy Dipper kid came in today. CDK is this kid who used to ALWAYS get dippers and now since we don't have them...we gets fries, anyway, he is totally in love with me, which is normal seeing as though I attract the creepy ones, but he always stares at me with this smile on his face and it grosses me out. I'm a modest person, I know when people don't like me, which is MOST of the time, but this kid has got it bad....eww. Yesterday some girl told her boyfriend that she was pregnant. Ya, I heard it all. She cried, he cried, I laughed...WHO COMES TO A DINER TO TELL SECRETS?! Jesus.... I have NO hours next week. Might go to my mums...but then I'll be away from the computer....and I'll cry...and so will EVERYONE else. So, that's pretty much it for my update. My life is SO exciting..... <3 Amanda (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
6:12 pm	random sort of story While defraging my computer, I was rereading the last 2 chapters of HBP and I was crying, then Heather, my 2 year old sister came downstairs talking about her new pink bike helmet and she saw that I was crying. She looked at me strangly and cocked her head and asked me 'what was wrong?' I said the book made me a bit sad. So, she hit the book and said "BAD BOOK!" It was cute! :) (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 28th, 2005
3:19 pm	Ya, I'd tap that. Was bored, so I decided to steal this from the Shana and ya... 10 Celebrities I Would Most Definitely Have Sex With: (in no particular order) 1. Andy Roddick [well duh :P] 2. Gregory Smith [I lurve him to death!]** 3. Chris Evans [dang - have we all seen his bod?! *dies*] 4. Ryan Reynolds [shiz! He is damn fine!]** 5. Norbert Leo Butz [he's not the BEST looking...but I MET HIM!] 6. Ben McKenzie [only because he is damn cute and seems WAY nice!] 7. Hayden Christensen [I've loved him since forever]** 8. Ryan Gosling [*drools*]** 9. Eric Szmanda [I've also loved HIM since forever too] 10. Matthew Perry [I loves me the Chandler....I have a thing]** the **'s are the Canadian guys. 5 out of the 10 are Canadian. patriotic? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:27 pm	oi ..... I'm not sure how I got out of there unscathed. Well, I didn't. But it's bad, but not THAT bad...maybe I'm lying. Who can say? I mean, I had an alright time at my mums, but it wasn't....fun! There was more fighting then anything else. It was fucking annoying. It still is. I want to shoot them when they do that. Damnit! I spent like $100 dollars. Over two days! GAH! Damn parents not paying for everything! *sigh* I'm in a depressed sort of mood right now. REALLY want to play...no one is on. *random-ness* No one sent Hannah a birthday gift except for Roger and Ginny. I know, I sound selfish. But no one did. Personally, SHE doesn't care...but *I* do...I get WAY too into this I tells ya. I saw 2 movies last night. Bad News Bears and War of the Worlds. They where both only alright. I also bought 2 movies and a tv show. - Annie [the newer one with teh Cheno] and One Fine Day. I also bought the full first season of Sweet Valley High. Which is the shiznit! I can't wait until the next season comes out on DVD! not sure what else to say at the mo... Amanda Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)